..."The way things are," you mean. Not "the way they're supposed to be."
[And honestly, it's fortunate that this is over text because Tsukiyama can feel himself tensing up again and it's not in a good way, and if Kaneki were in front of him he has absolutely no doubt that he would have slapped him for that.
It's another reaction with a source that he can't articulate; he just knows beyond a doubt that it would have happened, and for once he's grateful that their interactions are only over text. Kaneki doesn't know better, he doesn't understand the implications of what he's saying; just the same, it's not something that he can just shake off or insist is all right, either. Not so soon after Centipede (it's been months but he still remembers everything and that's going to be his reality again as soon as he leaves this place) and not after seeing him again in November and...]
Don't ever apologize to me again for not being who you were when I left Tokyo.
Maybe Banjou-san will be nicer about you saying things like that to him, but I'm not going to be because I don't feel that I can. Words like that aren't helping either of us - they can't be for your benefit because you don't understand what you're saying, and we've been through too much back home to make them at all comforting to me. To be blunt, I don't want to hear it, and if you try to say it to my face you can be assured now, Kaneki-kun, that I absolutely won't allow it.
If you have questions about how things are back home, I'll answer them for you; hopefully you know that much by now. I'll help you understand whatever it is you need, because it's my job to do that. You keep me alive for the sake of my information, after all.
But don't ever say anything like that to me again. Do you understand?
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[And honestly, it's fortunate that this is over text because Tsukiyama can feel himself tensing up again and it's not in a good way, and if Kaneki were in front of him he has absolutely no doubt that he would have slapped him for that.
It's another reaction with a source that he can't articulate; he just knows beyond a doubt that it would have happened, and for once he's grateful that their interactions are only over text. Kaneki doesn't know better, he doesn't understand the implications of what he's saying; just the same, it's not something that he can just shake off or insist is all right, either. Not so soon after Centipede (it's been months but he still remembers everything and that's going to be his reality again as soon as he leaves this place) and not after seeing him again in November and...]
Don't ever apologize to me again for not being who you were when I left Tokyo.
Maybe Banjou-san will be nicer about you saying things like that to him, but I'm not going to be because I don't feel that I can. Words like that aren't helping either of us - they can't be for your benefit because you don't understand what you're saying, and we've been through too much back home to make them at all comforting to me. To be blunt, I don't want to hear it, and if you try to say it to my face you can be assured now, Kaneki-kun, that I absolutely won't allow it.
If you have questions about how things are back home, I'll answer them for you; hopefully you know that much by now. I'll help you understand whatever it is you need, because it's my job to do that. You keep me alive for the sake of my information, after all.
But don't ever say anything like that to me again. Do you understand?