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[preybeforemeals]

[VOICE/TEXT/VIDEO; OPEN TO ALL]
(Meridiana, you probably want this one.)

"Ah, amore, it seems I've missed you; do leave something for me and we'll see if we can rectify that, shall we?"

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[grapeeater]

[It... takes a bit for him to get back to this message, since he'd seen it and tried to think about how to reply while still sweeping the city for Wrath. Finally he forces himself to sit down and respond.]

I'd say 'yes', but I think that might be a lie. 'Maybe' is closer. I shouldn't have let her get close. I should have hid my feelings from her completely.

I don't know what to do. I don't think there's anything I can do. I can't let people get close, but being so alone is hard. But I don't want to hurt people like I did.

I'm scared of me.

[preybeforemeals]

For what it's worth, I'm not afraid of you, even after everything you've told me. I've said it before, I think, and I continue to mean it still.

It's difficult, though, to have things that you feel you should keep from people, moreso when they're a fundamental part of yourself. When it becomes a matter of hiding those parts of yourself from others or being alone.

I can't promise that it gets easier or better, but I will hold by what I said. I'm not afraid of you, and I'm not interested in leaving you alone either. I'm not an acceptable substitute for what you want, I'm sure, but I can offer you that much.

[grapeeater]

I know. I have so many masks, though... I'm not sure which is myself anymore.

... Thank you, Tsukiyama. That means a lot.

[Not crying over here, nope.]

[preybeforemeals]

It's easy to lose track of yourself, isn't it? I'm sure there's some sort of horribly trite thing that can be said about choosing to be whichever suits you best, but it's never that simple or straightforward.

[grapeeater]

That's true. Different ways of approaching tings are useful at different times... I don't think I've ever really been able to understand why more people don't seem to be like that.

[preybeforemeals]

I've never really known if I envy them for it or if I think it's naive of them, myself.

[grapeeater]

I'm not sure. I guess it'd depend on the person.

[preybeforemeals]

Ahh, that's fair, I suppose - there are some from whom the genuineness of it all is actually pretty refreshing, I think.

It's just not something that I can ever do myself, either.

[grapeeater]

I don't think I can, either. I've been trained in business relations too much, probably.