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...I can explain my reasoning, but you probably won't care for it very much.

[Mm...]

You can, but you don't have to. I just figured I probably came off as...a kind of person who might be easier to convince to go with you.

Actually, when I first sought you out at Anteiku I was interested for the exact opposite reason.

I like powerful people, and the word was that you had just defeated someone from the CCG.

[..Ah, that...sure was a thing that happened, wasn't it.]

Oh...well, that makes sense.

At least you weren't looking for someone particularly athlethic...

[He's still ashamed of how bad that went.]

[SHIT HE PROBABLY SHOULDN'T HAVE LAUGHED AT: THAT]

That...probably could have gone a bit better, yes...

[Look, all he can say is that he's glad the Pokemon do the the fighting for sport here, not the other way around.]

It could have gone worse too, but...I think I'll just stick to books from now on.

That's probably for the best, honestly.

[And there are other reasons he has to say that, because he's seen what happens when Kaneki does decide to actually fight and do something with himself and the result isn't particularly pretty.

...That said, "...thanks, asshole" is still an utterly valid reaction to that.]

[...thanks, asshole.]

Anyway...I guess what I'm trying to say is I was surprised when you talked to me. I don't really know what I was expecting...to be honest, a lot of people told me it would be better for me to just keep my distance. I'm pretty sure they meant that because of how powerful you are, but...still.

[Basically, he can relate to not having many people to talk to, all told.]

You're trying to spare my feelings. That's kind of you, you know.

It's a little strange having so many people around, isn't it? "Around" in a way that matters, that is. I wasn't entirely alone back home - I had a pair of servants who were good to me, and Hori-san, of course - but even they were different to how things are here.

[...Wait.]

Ah, you haven't met Hori-san yet - she's a human I've known since we were in school together. It's probably been about...seven years now? Something like that.

[Yet...?]

It is, yes, and...I don't think I have. You say she's...a human?

[Well, he is technically from the future and all.]

She is! Something of an unusual one, but she's definitely human.

[That's...a little surprising.]

...Does she know about you?

[...Ah.]

Yes, she does.

Ah...I'm not saying that that's a bad thing, or anything, by the way. I'm just curious.

But...if you don't mind telling me, what is she like?

[Besides unusual and maybe harboring a death wish.]

Well, first of all - and don't tell her I told you this in so many words should you ever see her in person, because I imagine she won't be very impressed with me for having said it, but - she's incredibly young-looking. I suspect a lot of it has to do with the fact that she's so short, but she doesn't look a day older than she did when we met at sixteen. ...By which I mean she looks about twelve, if I'm going to be blunt.

Outside of looking so young, physically speaking she's very plain and frankly I find her unattractive, not the sort of person who would normally have caught my attention at all. In fact, we attended the same high school for years and I never noticed her.

As for her personality...she's very capricious in her daily life; I suppose you could say that she's somewhat like I am - I think she's looking for the ultimate experience, the thing that she won't be complete without, and she doesn't know what that is yet but she'll know it when she finds it. She's disinterested in things that don't lead to fulfilling that goal, and because of that she often comes across as apathetic and uncaring about life, but honestly I find her to be quite the opposite; she just doesn't have the time or the inclination to be kind to those that don't interest her. She's very blunt and socially strange, and she seems to prefer being alone; if she has any friends, I've never met them.

She's a photographer as well - an extremely talented one, actually, and that's how we met for the first time. She came across me while I was hunting someone and took pictures of the result. Things were a bit ugly between us for a while as a result, but everything worked out eventually.

She's never had any real interest in outing me to anyone, though, nor has she really threatened me with it; she's good at getting information for me, she's one of my best sources. We're very close now; she looks after me in much the same way that a sibling would, though she'll deny it if that's pointed out.

[Hang on just...give him a little while to read all of that...]

Wow. She sounds like a very distinct person, Tsukiyama-san. I'm sure if I ever did see her in person, it would be hard to miss her.

[...also good lord four for her for being brave enough to take a picture of Tsukiyama while he was hunting, gracious.]

[ahahahaha um

things "worked out" because she was also either brave or just fuckless enough to take a picture of him while he was holding her out an eighth-story window by her neck and threatening to drop her because he was super-well-adjusted in high school

he loves this girl because her metaphorical balls are dense enough to have their own gravitational pull, is what he's saying]

I'll have to introduce you, should she choose to grace us all with her presence eventually.

[Dear god.]

Alright. I guess it is almost time for people to start arriving here again, isn't it? So...maybe she will.

If she does, then she does; I'm not particularly concerned. We're going to be set back exactly where we came from anyway and it's not as though I'll remember missing her any when we return to our daily lives, so I'm not going to bother with it.

[...tsukiyama surely you can't just decide- ...okay, you know what, you do you.]

[Well, that's...one way to go about it, he guesses.]

I guess you're right.

That is a little sad somehow, though. ...not being able to remember this place, I mean.

[Moreso for him, he's sure. He really does like it here, for obvious reasons.]

I suppose so. While we're being honest with each other, though...if given the option to leave, right now, I would probably take it without thinking twice about it.

It's not that I'm unhappy here - I've enjoyed myself here, I've loved the opportunities and the people I've met - but it's more that I know I wouldn't be happy staying here, if that makes sense.

That makes sense, yes. I can't say I would want to do the same, but...I do understand.

I guess, in my case, it would be better for me to forget, should I leave one day.

[It would just be too hard, having to go back.]

...As I've said before, Kaneki-kun, I won't try to change your mind or convince you that you should want to go back.

If you're happy here and it's what you want, then it's what I want for you.

I know. ...thank you, for that.

I really do like it here for the most part, as strange as it can be. But since we don't have any control over what happens, I'm going to try to not worry about it.

That's the best we really can do with what we've been given, I think.

Are you going to be all right for the time being, otherwise?

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