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Just keep doing as you have been, then. We can...well, we can be there for each other, if nothing else.

[He pauses briefly, shaking his head as though trying to clear it.]

...I just miss them, I suppose. But it's like we were saying - I don't really want to see them here, either. So either it's fine to feel that way or we're both wrong, and even if it's the latter, I don't particularly care.

Yeah. I know. I... I'm sorry. It sucks. It sucks so fucking much.

[There goes the first box of tissues...]

It doesn't really matter if we're both wrong. As long as it's both of us, it's fine.

That's what I think, too.

[And that seems to relax him, really; he's still not calm, not by a long shot, but he's less worked up, at least, and smiling comes easily even if he isn't feeling it.]

Are you going to be all right, monsieur?

Yeah. I'll be alright. It's... really helped talking to you. So uh, thanks. And I'm sorry I can't be of any more help.

You have nothing to be sorry for.

[...]

You ought to join me in Olivine, you know. I think you'd like it here.

Ah, really? But that involves routes...

[He looks genuinely torn though. He does want to hang out with Tsukiyama but the lack of cake...]

Does it help persuade you if I tell you the food here is worth it? Apparently no one saw fit to tell me this is the best dining spot in the region before I got here.

Best dining spot in the region...?

[Naki's eyes light up at that. But there is one pressing question--]

What's the dessert like!?

Oh, believe me, it's excellent.

I do have a question for you, though, before we make any decisions. It's possibly not a very pleasant one, but it's been bothering me.

Yeah? What is it?

You mentioned having your kagune back this past weekend. You said you "barely" used it.

When...did you use it, exactly?

Uh, well...

[Naki glances away, but at least he's not crying anymore? Good lord his makeup is smeared everywhere. What a mess.]

Greed was showing me what he could do with his Ultimate Shield thing. So I showed him what I could do. But I didn't say anything about you or anyone else! I didn't tell him too much about ghouls either, just that we can do that.

[...Oh god.]

How much have you told him? You're sure it's just that?

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Definitely not about what we eat. I've mentioned that humans hate us and I mentioned I was captured for awhile and uh... the kagune? I think that's it though. Definitely nothing about what we eat.

...I sincerely hope he doesn't come across anyone from the CCG, because knowing about the kagune will be enough.

I've told him not to tell anyone. Ever. I trust him. He knows how scared I am that something'll happen.

[Probably because Naki's freaked out at him several times, um.]

So he's not gonna tell anyone. Especially not any guys with briefcases!

Fine, though I won't believe it until I see it.

Well you can't exactly see it, since all he's gotta do is keep his mouth shut...

Just trust me on this!

Actually, yes, I can, because we'll know as soon as he doesn't.

Don't you dare tell me to trust you on this particular matter after the discussion we just had regarding what the CCG did to my home ward. Maybe eventually, but not now.

...You think this is easy for me? I know you've got it bad. I know. But guess what, you're not the only one. Do you really think I would've told him fucking anything if I didn't trust him? He's not gonna sell us out.

Funny, I remember telling you the same thing about Hori.

I dunno about you, but it's a little harder for me to trust a human from our own world than it is to trust a nonhuman guy who's not familiar with the shit going down back home.

Personally, I find it more difficult to trust the person I don't know who likely won't understand why this is such an important thing to keep quiet about, and who's displayed a marked tendency to shoot his mouth off at every opportunity he gets, as opposed to the person who's been my best friend for seven years.

Alright, alright, we've established we're both gonna be wary as shit around these people. What more do you want? You want me to apologize for trusting someone with this shit? Fine. Fine. I'm sorry I didn't get your permission first to talk about this. I know it's not just gonna come down on my head if shit goes down, but it's not. I know it's not.

If that day ever comes then you can fucking take it out on me. You can take it out on him. You can take it out on the whole goddamn region for all I'll fucking care.

Are we fucking done here or what?

[And he's just quiet at that, and he shakes his head again as though he's trying to dispel whatever thoughts are in there, and when that doesn't work he just...drops his gaze and keeps his head bowed once he's done so.

There's part of him that's fucking furious but the rest...god, he's never wanted to cry so much in his life, and the stupid thing is that he doesn't understand why and the stupider thing is that he doesn't think he could even if he tried to, so he just kind of stays like that for a moment, shaking his head again before he responds.]

...I think so.

[And that's too quiet, and he swears a little under his breath because Naki is deaf as hell and Tsukiyama knows he probably didn't catch that, so he starts over because that's just something he's accepted that he's going to have to do.]

I...Yes, I think so, just...forget that I said anything, do whatever you want, I don't care.

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